Have you ever had one of those days when you just feel restless and aren't content with anything? Well, I've been going on a month feeling this way, maybe more. I just feel so restless. My days are spent wondering what more I should be doing with my life...what is God telling me? I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that my children are older. They don't need me as much and I've been so wrapped up in them, that I don't know what to do with myself.
Part of what makes it so hard too is that at one point we knew exactly what we were doing with our lives. We were part of a great church and on the fast track to ministry. Our lives were mapped out for us. Then I allowed sin into my life and lost all of that. When you lose something in your life that was all of your life, it sucks. It sucks that I no longer have that in my life to look forward to and neither does Rob. Now we have no idea what the future holds for us.
Another part of what makes me feel so restless now is that my best friend finally realized her dream and her calling and is now in Africa full time. I'm so proud that she is out living what God has called her to do, but it makes me ansy, I wish I knew what God had in store for my life. Wishing that whatever ministry we were supposed to be a part of would magically appear before me right now!
I know that everything is in God's timing and his timing is perfect, but it is really hard to remember that when you just feel stuck. I want to be doing more but have no idea what I want to be doing. I can't wait to see what amazing things he has in store for us! It's so exciting to think about. I'm ready for it.
I can't wait until the day I can write a blog about what exciting ministry God has shown us we should be a part of!
