The queen of lists

As most of you know I'm fasting from Facebook. I know that seems strange, but truly, I was spending way too much time on there. I would look around on FB instead of doing housework. I would just be on Facebook to do anything other than what I should be doing.

I've been going through a lot of change and growth lately. And it has been AWESOME!!! I love the things I'm learning, I'm just soaking everything in and I just want more and more which is why I'm taking this step.

I'm the queen of making lists. I will make lists of lists - I kid you not, my lists are long and have sub lists. It's easy for me to have 5 different lists going at any one time. Rob and my dad joke about my lists. It just makes me feel better to have everything written down...whether I do them or not is another story. Lately I have not been doing them, but man, I was writing them like crazy! It seems so silly to me that I have to fast from FB and write about it, gah, how pathetic am I?? But, hey, Satan will use whatever he can to distract me from God and he is using so many distractions for me. So, I decided to make a list tonight and to actually follow this list. Here it is:

Why am I fasting?

• To focus on God more
• To pray more

What am I praying for?

• My work schedule (as I am thinking about adding another day of work to my crazy life)
• Youth Group (I so believe in this youth group and want to pray it goes in the direction God has planned and is blessed)
• Forgiveness for myself and to help me forgive others
• Freedom from regret
• My church
• My pastors
• My marriage
• Exercise (this may seem silly, but I have gained a lot of weight and am very unhappy and feel badly about myself and feel very unhealthy which worries me)
• Setting a better example for my daughters
• Wisdom for my husband
• Righteousness for myself and for Rob
• Time management
  

When will I pray?

I'll have my regular quiet time in the mornings and pray then as I usually do. But each time I think about getting on FB or spending more time on the computer, then I'll stop and pray even more fervently for the things listed above. After all, that is what fasting is about. Taking something that is natural, something you do a lot and taking it away - then every time you think about it, you are reminded to pray.

I've decided to be really careful and actually take it a step further. I'm going to limit myself to 1/2 hour on the computer per day so I don't just fill the FB time with something else. I am writing my blogs on paper when I'm alone so as not to take more time on the computer. I know that usually when you fast it is to pray for 1 thing in particular, but I feel the need to pray for all those different things.

It's not easy and I'm already thinking, this is so silly! Why make such a big deal about it? Why not just hop on a couple times a day to check up on friends...but, I'm trying my best not to! And now, I'm going to go pray!